CN: misogyny, discrimination mentions, etc. (Toby Young and Boris Johnson) I didn't do a lot of writing during the winter break (refusing to use the term 'vacation' is a form of resistance, however mild). But I did a decent bit of planning, and I have increasing confidence of what will happen in the middle part … Continue reading An Update on My Writing: Politics, Society and Literature 1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzP4kQhlPBY Sometimes it feels like I've got a war in my mind I want to get off, but I keep ridin' the ride I never really noticed that I had to decide To play someone's game or live my own life And now I do I wanna move Out of the black (out of the … Continue reading Returning to University: Not-being-happy and breakdowns.
^ My theme song for 2017. "I rose from the almost dead" ^ My quote of 2017 CN: suicide, anxiety, OCD 2017 was one fucking rollercoaster of a year. From outside, it is easy to conclude that 2017 has gone perfectly for me and I should be happily proud of my (academic) achievements. But being … Continue reading Reflections on 2017 and Goals for 2018
I had grand plans to post every week this holiday and even write enough to schedule some for later. As it turns out, I barely wrote anything. Mental health recovery, getting a job, going on holiday, learning a new language, filling out forms and getting vaccinations and packing for university, reading for university, meeting new … Continue reading Why haven’t I been posting and where have I been?
to my old friend, Ennui. For the last month I've gradually been slipping out of my very organised and high-stressed routine. I knew that the summer was coming and I didn't want to fuck up. I tried to run a trial of what the summer holiday could potentially be like during half-term but it failed … Continue reading I want to say goodbye
While sprawling on my bed, it struck me how a phrase from Thouny's "Waiting for a Messiah" could used to be describe my own life with a painfully startling accuracy. Thouny describes the setting of the seminal 90s anime Neon Genesis Evangelion as being neither in a state of war, nor in a state of peace and rebuilding, … Continue reading The State of Waiting